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Hey!

Kamusta na ? :P

I have a lot to say to you even though it would be pointless on for you since I'm nobody to you and my actions does not affect anything to you. But I need to let this out because I have not had any chance to talk to you on this particular matter because all you would say is "kalimutan na yun" or "Hayaan na, wag nang ungkatin uli"

Di man lang kita nakausap nung graduation at halatang ayaw mo ko makausap :D :3

Pero alam mo...

You are my greatest regret and I'll have to admit that the odds are not with me for you. But I ask God fervently, that in time you'll see me and stop by to see how I'm living my life.

All the poems I wrote was about you. All the things I say is about you. The mere weeks you said was not of a big deal, took me almost three years to overcome. You hate, I knew it. Pag gagawa ako ng bagaya na ayaw mo nang gawin ko.

Limang buwan kita nakasama uli, pero wala lang sayo yun, alam ko. Kasi di naman ako parte ng circle mo. May iba akong mundo, sinikap kong humanap ng babaeng katulad mo. Nakita ko naman, pero di naglaon eh mukhang di nya rin kinaya ang ugali ko.

Pero na appriciate ko naman yung mga maliliit na bagay na nagawa mong kala mo simple lang pero napakahalaga sakin dahil ikaw ang gumawa...

Yung pag aya mo sa iba na dalawin ako sa ospital kahit di kayo natuloy....

Yung pag punta mo sa Birthday ko kahit di ka nagtagal kasi sinusundo ka na ng boyfriend mo...

Yung pag bibigay mo sakin dati ng pagkain pag nag iinarte ako...

Marami pa kaso sabihin mo OA nanaman ako kasi para sayo sandali at di naman gaaano ka lalim yun. hahahaha

Anyways, alam ko na sobrang bigat ng mga pinagdadaanan mo and you don't need a person like me to of your burden in any aspect of your life. Walang puwang si Justin na "Pa-chicks" sa buhay mo. Aminado naman ako dun. Gusto mo yung taong kokontrol sa ugali mo at mag kakalinga sayo. Di ko kaya yun :D

Okay na sakin na sabihin mo lahat ng masasamang bagay sakin kasi naging bitter nga rin naman ako sayo ng wala sa lugar. Di ako karpat dapat mag salita against you pero ginawa ko kaya marapat lang na ako'y parusahan dun. Naalala ko nga, me nakapag sabi sakin na natatawa ka na lang pag na aalala mo ko pero that's fine, atleast naalala mo ako :)

Pero alam mo, maraming araw na gusto kong sabihin sayo na sana binigyan mo ako ng pagkakakataon :( Ang sarap mong mahalin at kahit di moko minahal, siguro kay husay mong mag mahal.

Araw-araw ko iniisip yun. At mapipikon ka lang pag nag dada ako tungkol dun. (Kaya wag mo kong punahin pag nagdradrama ako sa post)

I can go on forever sa pag sasalita dito pero the bottomline is I REALLY DO LOVE YOU :) AND I HAVE MISSED YOU AND I WILL MISS YOU AGAIN :(

Awww naluluha ako habang tina type tong lintek na mga letra na to.

Hirap kasi nang nakatanaw na lang palagi sayo. Alam ko namang may pinag dadaanan knag mga bagay bagay na napakalalim kasi alam kong tungkol sa pamilya mo, pero alam mo, mas namamangha ako sa katibayan ng loob mo.

I hope in time you'll mend your heartaches. I wish nothing but happiness and success to you. I hope the one you've chosen to spend your life with, justifies all his effort to you as I can see that you are well taken care of. Maswerte sya at minahal mo sya ng ilang taon. He gave you what you truly deserve. Pinangalagaan ka nya, at inaruga. Mahal ka nya.

Ewan ko lang kung gaano pa katagal tong nararamdaman ko sayo, pero di ako nag sisisi kasi ginusto ko ito. Even thought it stings from time to time, I still feel happy whenever I see just a photo of you.

Hayys If only you can see me while I'm writing this down.

Pero okay lang hahahaha.

I hope you can just give me a chance to be happy, even for an hour or two of mutual conversation. I might not deserve your "forever", but at least you gave me something to remember :)

Bye bye....

I love you...

I always did...

:) :'( :(

PS: Wag ka namang sobrang mapikon sakin pag nag kakaganito ako :)

Freelancing #16

We stand here in an empty place,
no shadows of night, no light of days
We simply stare at each other eye to eye,
where can we see each other on truths and lies?

Once we simply could not care,
we live on long and pointless despair
When will our hearts open and embrace,
all the love and trust we need for all the days

Sometimes we sleep on harsh words,
sometimes we rise on kind thoughts
None of us really knows the true worth,
of all the happiness and pain on this earth

We stand here in an empty place,
no shadows of night, no light of days
We simply stare at each other eye to eye,
where can we see each other on truths and lies?

Freelancing #15

A summer filled with hopes and dreams,
of youthful strength and an age old fear
A subject of ridicule from all her peers,
now she promises to not shed a single tear

With vigor and pure determination, she marched,
fearing no obstacle; to combat the might of the storm
Looking up to the sky, she prayed before she charged,
with the wind in on her side; breaking all wrongful norms

As the days go by and by she grew tired,
placed her wings to rest and looked up to her sire
Of all the creatures who cried out to heaven she was beloved,
her cause was that voice of the millions and not of a hundred

In every hearts she is still remembered dearly,
for she lived and she died with us everyday
She is born when we see new things happily,
will we let her die as we turn dreams to dismay? 

Freelancing #14

Will you hold me close tonight, my love?
It seems like I'm losing all the warmth
I lost all the joy and I sit down and sob,
all the happy days seems to go back and it haunts

I ponder on a hopeless memory of us,
the colors of yesterday, the bliss of the past
I wonder if it was just a merry day,
when we promised ourselves to stay until the last

Will you hold me in your arms tonight, my love?
It seems like my days are at it's last
I was smiling before your words go and drop,
those phrases I wished I should had passed

Look at the night sky and see all the stars,
they lit up the heavens and it was made for us
But it seems that fate has written a different ending,
so we drew ourselves out of fantasy; was it lack of trust?

Will you hold me close tonight, my love?
It seems like I'm missing all the hugs
I lost all the joy and I sit down and sob,
why did we end all so very hard?

Freelancing #13

Thanks for all the memories,
they sure won't last
Thanks for all the melodies,
I know they will all pass

Thanks for all those sweet words,
even thought they're not meant for me
Thanks for all those bitter words,
and all the blasphemies I see

With all of the care you gave,
you kept a very long record
With all the tears I saved,
you kept it to my own accord

Thanks for all the kisses,
and your gentle and loving embrace
I thought you were a princess,
but your beauty faded along with the days

Freelancing #12

Too good to be true,

a day full of memories

So sweet; the kiss of morning dew,

but worn out by many entities

A star that passes by,

too bright to gaze upon

Look as it says "Good bye",

and leave all things undone

Roses that withered through time,

they all carry sad sentiments

Will I let it grow or die?

They're all annoying statements 

Too good to be true,

a night full of promises

So bitter; the embrace of evening dew,

as this aching heart goes restless 

Blew a kiss so tender,

and embraced by loving arms,

The time came for sweet surrender,

it left and denied all the harm

Too good to be true,

a dawn full of mysteries

Gaze at the midst of the ocean blue,

forget all the pain and tyrannies

Freelancing #11

As soon as the flames die out,

I'll be running back from the start

Maybe I'll just forget all my doubt,

and unwind this war-torn heart 

I don't know the taste of wine,

but a sip can make me better

I wished I can have all your time,

but it makes me more drunk than sober

Our love was about to grow,

but uncertainty weakened it to death

I could have reaped what I sowed,

but we suppressed it until its last breath 

Our past haunted our future,

and forged us to be lame

But our hearts doesn't need torture,

so let's stop playing this painful game

As soon as the fire die out,

I'll be searching for those broken parts

Maybe I'll just ignore all my doubts,

and rewind myself back from the start