Carried By Emotion

Blank sheets of paper in front of me,
what shall I write on them; letters of love and affection?
All seems to be lost when you rejected me,
then I call all my unwanted necessities

You choose to be loved and cared by another one,
I can't accept the fact that I'm not that one
What did I do wrong for you to give me no attention?
Can you tell me and make no tension?

Kill me if you hate me; stab me if you don't,
I don't want to suffer; your image makes a haunt
What shall you do if I kill myself in front of you?
Will you help me kill myself too?

An Angel's Visit

Look and you shall find,
the missing link in your mind
The gap in the puzzle of life,
is within your spinning sight

Call and you shall hear,
the faint voices is getting clear
The sound that brings you joy,
is from the heaven's unending voice

Ask and you shall think,
about the good things this brings
The answers to all your questions,
will come up without attention

Love and you shall feel,
that all the signs are real
You'll see me fly away,
Then your happiness will go and fade

Consience Advisory

Standing near the highest peak,
realizing that it is already near
No one can help you now,
cause you've made a vow

Your starting to collect,
the broken pieces of your heart
The soul of your love disappeared,
and you start to make her as the enemy

You bitter boy; is your heart that soft?
When things got out of hand you go sob
You made her as your inspiration,
now you made her a sign of rejection

No angel can go near your heart,
because the demon took you apart
You push the good things away,
because you see her disarray

You unfortunate boy; is your heart that low?
When will you learn that she never know
You made yourself suffer for nothing,
she will never know your caring

Kill your emotions and let time tell,
the things that you need to know
Let her be loved by someone,
don't be a fool and have her

Your not that ready for you to love her,
train yourself to control and manage
For the the signs are not that clear,
make sure you never tear

The Wanderer

I search for a sanctuary for me to enter,
a place that I need for my sweet surrender
I looked from east to west,
and endured a lot of test

From where I came from; there's no peace,
the life I had is now a broken piece
So I took a staff and wandered off,
to search that place where I can be soft

I came to place where everything is perfect,
a place where love and care is the subject
I prayed to God and thank him for this,
for the journey I took is already complete

As time goes by the paradise turns to hell,
and all the things in the past now returned
So I took my staff and walked away,
I looked back at the place of dismay

When will I stop wandering for a place of silence?
When everything in this world is nothing but darkness
So I looked at the image of my beloved,
and hoped that she return and be loved again

For now I wander off into the wilderness,
in search of a new settlement
If I find it again I'll never leave,
all I need to do is to believe

Bottle Temptation

A cold bliss went up into my head,
and I started to see this place as red
The mixture of alcohol and sadness,
puts me to a different test

My eyes says I should slumber,
so I'll keep this things under
But temptation urges me to continue,
with all the things I could do

I started with only one bottle,
when the spirit kicks in I toggle
Like acid; It burns my throat,
like poison; It kills my soul

A temporary nirvana awaits me,
but after that everything annoys me
A sweet surrender so it seems,
a bitter after taste after it begins

This water is quite addictive,
when I drink it; It's very effective
It kills all the worries of the mind,
but after it you'll have nothing to hide

A Boy's Confusion

I started facing all the inconvenient truths,
and I seek this new and better routes
But still I look behind and pray,
that all of those things won't hunt me again

The streak of light hit's this tearful eyes,
as the new sun came out and rise
Finally this heart is gone with the wind,
but why does this love needs to be kept and beamed?

With all the necessary proof of rejection,
I resign and looked for a better projection
But why do I still have the feelings for that girl,
when she's happy with another pearl?

I tried ignoring her everyday,
but this eyes wants her to be glazed
I see an image she portray's,
the girl who needs a lot of space

My ideas came straight from her presence,
my fear and worries visits in her absence
Somehow the connection is slowly revived,
but I'll try to destroy it and hide

So I'll have a final review of myself,
can I live without the person who completes me?
Can I love another person who indeed loves me back,
or will I be an idiot and set things back

For now this feelings won't disappear,
because she is still the one this love hold dear
The final conclusion to this tragic tapestry,
is about to come with all the my misery

The Red Mask

I've been in the edge of fear,
and all of the scene are here
I can't see through that fog,
it covers her and it tugs

The whole place is turning upside-down,
and their faces turned into a frown
Down with all of the good things,
is the old man with his species

He gave me a red mask to wear,
and told me to go out and tell
The things I want to say,
and let mercy make them pay

That red mask gave me power,
and showed me how to love her
But the devils wrath is within it,
so I looked for another way

For about a month the worst happened,
the sword of her cold heart sharpened
All of my fears returned,
and the call of the demon is playing

Then I saw the red mask,
back in my shaking hands
It tells me to use him and be powerful again,
to prevent all the signs of pain

What should I do with this red mask?
should I throw it out into the vast?
Or will I wear it with no second thoughts,
and have all the demonic talks?

Goodnight; Goodbye

I see her but I can't go near her,
for the walls she created is just to tall
Like an idiot I made myself suffer,
she never tends to even bother

Goodnight; Goodbye happiness,
for what I have is emptiness
In the dark I see nothingness,
only pain goes into this veins

I know her but I can't tell her,
the things that she truly bothers
The scene made me go crazy,
a man; paranoid over a daisy

Goodnight; Goodbye sanity,
for this pain seems to be an infinity
I try to find the lost fidelity,
but I can't see the reality

I love her but I can't have her,
because she's to mature to be handled
I let her pass with her ways,
the I count all the days

Goodnight; Goodbye friend,
for you are the one I tell
Living far from you is like hell,
your love is like a spell

Can We Start Over Again?

I remember those days,
when everything was a ablaze
A friendship that was good,
in secret it was better

Friendship turned into love,
but that thing isn't enough
I kept it secret as long as I could,
but this heart said that I should

A reckless Saturday it was,
when beer made it's glorious wash
Through the keyboard I say,
all the things and led me to dismay

For a month there's no interaction,
that brought me to a state of confusion
Until our temporary farewells were said,
the things kept hitting my head

For my return I hope for your response,
can we star over again and let me take the sums?
The friendship I want to resurrect,
from the ashes I've made and relay

The love I'll put away for you,
will be given if you want it to
But let us be friends again,
let me be your tutor again

Sweet Breeze

Sweet breeze; I call you now,
for my lungs needs air somehow
I want to taste your coolness,
I'm to tired being breathless

Sweet breeze; I need you now,
pacify my sadness somehow
For I've been suffering long enough,
from this pain that's very tough

Sweet breeze; I seek you now,
this coward needs you somehow
Anxiety brings him far from reality,
and he created his own fantasy

Sweet breeze; I want you now,
I just can't get over her somehow
She never did a thing to me,
but everyday she tortures me

Sweet Breeze; I cry to you now,
this tears I can't keep somehow
For this heart is nearly broken,
and I can't do things about it

Stella venire non possem(Image)

Stella venire non possem

The night sky is filled with stars,
and it seems to be filled with gold bars
I imagine myself a cherubim,
who plays with all of the light beams

I soar the night sky in search of that star,
looking from left to right seeing nothing so far
The star that would fill the emptiness of this heart,
the one who will see through the darkest part

I saw one drifting in front of me,
a beautiful and bright entity
The light shined through the vacancies
and I love what it brings to me

But the time came that the star drifted away,
leaving my evening adventure into dismay
I try to fly towards it,
but prevented by a dark pit

I prayed for that star to drift back to me,
so it can save me and set me free
From this world of a loner,
I try to reach for that goner

That star is now as far as the galaxies,
leaving me in a situation of anxiety
I miss the time it was close to me,
the warmth i felt is worth mentioning

But It seems that star I could not reach,
because the winds blew it at the breach
A tear fell whenever I see the light,
fades as it hide into the night

The star I could not reach left,
flying towards the new vent
I'll begin to look again,
when the signal had finally ended

The Girl From Plaridel

The scene in my day turns colorful,
when I see the face of wonders
That girl from plaridel,
went inside my heart and fell

That smile that I use as a catalyst,
also makes the spirit within a silent priest
For the image of purity is on her,
and my joy that no one could alter

All the men around her becomes weakened by her beauty,
but do they know her true identity
They make moves to have your hands,
but I'm here waiting for your demands

That girl from plaridel won my trust,
but she seems to lost all the parts
For she needs one person to love her,
not another person to spoil her

She suffered once before from love immature,
now she needs a lover who secures
The one who will never hurt her like before,
and make sure all her worries never toll

I hope I could be that person,
that who will love her for reason
But I have nothing to offer,
that heart that needs a lover

For she is that high I couldn't reach,
so I look up to her as she made me speak
But this mouth cant open in her presence,
so I lost a lot of essence

I love that girl from plaridel,
I need her as much as to yell
So I need that girl from plaridel,
just to keep me from going to fall

Can She Read My Mind?

Can she read my mind?
can she see darkness not light?
Will she see the love and compassion,
that this heart got from her treasure

Can she read my mind?
can she see darkness not light?
Can she feel the pain I bear,
and the touch of love in the air

Could she see the things I do,
for her to give me a better view?
Does she like to see the wrath eat,
this heart that is not made of meat

Does she likes to see this heart to suffer?
to burn and let this soul die in anger
With no clarification and the action,
will she ignore this feeling of compassion?

But then again they couldn't answer,
the simple things about her
And the question remains clear and stronger
can she read my mind and let me suffer?

The Sacred Apparition(Image)

Summer Face(Image)

El corazón inquieto(Image)

5:30(Image)

To Her (Image)

Ang Liham (Image)

I'm Here(Image)

The Great Depression(image)

El corazón inquieto

Now this heart is tired,
and went into the hive
The beating of it's soul,
had finally relapsed

Now that this heart is a little tired,
I think it's about time to bring the things back
As long as she's free and flying,
there's no need to be bothering

Tell me how to stop this restless heart,
from flying away and depart
Now what will this thing do,
when it starts living without you

5:30

From this reckless month,
all seems to be in taunt
Couples make their plans,
and all seems to be in hand

Now I face nothingness and shame,
for the cowardliness and stupidity I've made
For the race is done and complete,
and I landed on the fifth

In the weeks of my bitterness,
I wait until the afternoon
At the time of her dismissal,
the chances where darn good

But I choose to be silent,
and let somebody take the chances
I'm now in that same hour,
without anyone to bother

Now when the new afternoon comes,
I lay down in the arms of wrath
I watch her go out of this heart,
and she headed to the next part

She didn't like the strategies,
and preferred to be on his boundaries
I've done this to myself and and let her slip away
and I created my own world very gray

When that hour comes I just stand at the corner,
and let that tears to shower
For this hour is no celebration,
I'll better be dead than to be martyred

None Shall Be Spoken

The time has finally come,
For this restless heart to relax
Words that was kept inside,
Now gives me the signal to resign

Without trying I retreat,
Than to hear the true meaning
I’m willing to be battered,
Than hear that things that alter

Known to be kind hearted,
Rainbows fill her morning
In times I sit on the fences,
Sadness eats the feelings

The fear of the unknown hunts me,
In her gestures; I calculate my chances
None shall be spoken
Everything seems to be taken

By the time that the period ends,
My nightmares won’t make amends
I feel guilt than bitterness
Because you are not meaningless

You deserve a better person,
The one who will give the right action
For now none shall be spoken,
For everything is taken

For two days of the sun
I won’t be gone
After this period of rest,
It’s time to built another nest

But the time of confrontation,
Is not yet in motion
None shall be spoken,
Everything is taken

Who will you choose from the four?
Is it him? No one knows
But again; I’ll be watching
And I hope for a new beginning